The world I grew up in — my family, my neighbors, the churches, the schools — all said that sex was evil. Not only was world full of sex crimes, but of crime sex, and everyone was secretly a criminal.
Things have not changed. Sex is actually still a crime, despite what the TV shows, the movies show, what people think about and talk about, and what they apparently do. Hard to imagine those people doing things. Any of those things. Really hard.
How can they stand to think about it? All of them are only bags of watery meat, all of them, and none of that meat is pretty, yet they keep up with it, and keep denying it, and hate everyone who does it, or who admits to doing it. You know, "It". The bad thing. Whatever "It" is supposed to be. I don't know — no one ever educated me about it, and now I'm still afraid of the dark.
Crime sex can apparently happen to anyone, anywhere, at any time, and infect them with terminal nastiness. Vigilance is called for. Prayer is needed. Watchfulness is called for. Public shaming is needed. Then maybe things will get better but not before. Or maybe not. Who can say?
I'd rather not be part of it, and except for one accidental relationship, I haven't been. No one has ever liked me enough to want to turn me nasty and evil too. It's all really messy, completely frowned on by all the authorities and still a perennial dirty joke. But it's lonely out here all alone, too. But that's life, isn't it? Isn't it? You aren't supposed to be happy, or to do any of those things, and fundamentally anyway, if we didn't have these nasty illegal urges would any of us truly want to do any of that nasty stuff?
I would settle for having a few friends. I would. Maybe that's just me. How it is now — just me. I'm my only friend, and no lovers. Maybe it's for the best. At least I'm legal. Mostly clean. No one suspects my one "love", as it's called. Because you have to take only one look at me to permanently never suspect. I pass.
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